Look out for this space!

Just wait for this space to be filled up with my sayings and thoughts about the Kenya mission trip.

Trust that it will be worthwhile your wait.

It will be up by latest by this Sunday night though it will be as soon as possible!

Going to Kenya!

Yeah! I am going to Kenya for 2 weeks! Looking forward to be His humble servant there and also to learn many many important lessons there! Leaving the comforts of Singapore may prove to be a blessing in disguise. I was really worrying about many things but I have learned to leave everything to God and rest in His sovereignty. I have seen Him work so faithfully throughout my life so how could I not trust Him.

In situations where I have stepped out of line and gone on my own ways and also insisting that they are right ways for me, God has allowed me to stumble and fall. But He has always picked me up after each and every fall, continually shaping me to be an effective servant to do His Work.

A definitive post!

I have decided not to think and worry about the many issues in my life because they seem to distract my focus on God. As the words of the song “In Christ Alone” goes:

“In Christ alone
I place my trust
And find my glory in the power of the cross
In every victory
Let it be said of me
My source of strength
My source of hope
Is Christ alone”

Now, I have also decided to take each and every step of my life by faith (in where God is leading me!). Continue to pray for me as it is difficult to keep my focus on God through every turn and twist in my life. But I still remain always comforted in the Sovereignty of God, that He always have everything in control.

The long-awaited update!

It has been some time since I last updated this blog. It is partly due to me thinking over some life issues. First of all, it is to do with my 4-years commitment not to be involved in any relationship (most likely until I am 30 years old). It is not that I am not interested in any girl right now but I want to be patient and wait for God’s timing.

Second of all, I want to be very sure that His call to full-time ministry and then into Thailand is really His calling for my life, especially with regards to the latter. I am also especially concerned that it should not be based solely on my emotions and passion.

Finally, I would end with part of this Christian song “O Jesus I have promised”:

“O let me hear Thee speaking

In accents clear and still,

Above the storms of passion,

The murmurs of self-will.

O speak to reassure me,

To hasten or control;

O speak, and make me listen,

Thou guardian of my soul.”

A “raw” post

Guess that I felt like writting before I leave for my church camp next week. Time is rather tight for my assignments but I am very sure that God will carry me through. I have also a Kenya mission trip to prepare for. 

Another thing is that I still continue to seek after God’s WIll for my life (it is not that I am not sure regarding it but I want to be really sure that it is really God’s Will and not due solely to my passion, wants and feelings!).

Not to be sicktracked but I really hope to build up relationships and even form new relationships during the church camp! I am also looking very much forward to what God would speak to me during the duration of this church camp!

My “thought-out” blog entry

This is really a rather long blog entry but do take your time to read through it as this is really a “thought-out” blog entry.

 

While continuing to read the book “The Shadow of the Almighty”, I am into Chapter 12 “The Test of Service”. Several portions of this chapter spoke to me:

 

The words in italics are my personal follow-through thoughts.

 

1) One may have good reason, for example, to want a wife, and he may have one legitimately. But with a wife comes Peter the Pumpkin Easter’s proverbial dilemma – he must find a place to keep her. Now, my heart and mind is too filled and there is really no proper place to think of this one issue.

 

2) Help, Lord; let my ministry be Spirit empowered, not put over by my personality. My prayer is for this.

 

3) One section that Jim writes to Elisabeth is as follows: “I pray for you, that all your misgivings will be melted to thanksgivings. Remember that the shadow a thing casts often far exceeds the size of the thing itself (especially if the light be low on the horizon), and though some future fear may strut brave darkness as you approach, the thing itself will be but a speck when seen from beyond. Oh that He would restore us often with that ‘aspect from beyond’, to see a thing as He sees it, to remember that He dealeth with us as with sons. Amy Carmichael’s words come to me:

 

            He hath never failed thee yet.

            Never will His love forget.

            O fret not thyself nor let

            Thy heart be troubled,

            Neither let it be afraid.              ”

 

All of this encourages me to remain confident and not be afraid of God’s guidance for my future: He always knows best.

 

4) …. get up forty-five minutes early, ahead of the rest of the family, get to a place where we could be alone with the Lord, without interruptions if possible. I am still giving this thought and may give this a try.

 

5) From the book of James, ‘Ye ask and receive not, because ye ask amiss, that ye may consume it upon your lusts’. I do need to re-confirm the reasons why I am going into full-time ministry in Galilee BP Church.

 

6) God is going to give me a specific leading – not when I ask for it, but when I need it, and not until then. I am praying this for all areas of my life; that I will wait for God’s timing and not my own timing.

 

At the end of this chapter, what Jim wrote to Elisabeth echoes my own desire:

 

I exalt to know the God who maintains the path of the just as a shining light, brighter by the moment toward the Perfect Day.

More dependence on God!

My deadline is on July 6 by which time I need to finish all my 4 theological assignments and 1 module assessment paper. I only have about 5 more weeks becasue one week will be taken up by church camp.

I still have to read another 400-pages book and get started on my assignments. But I remain confident that God will bring me through this period: that He will give me the wisdom and guidance needed for the 4 theological assignments and 1 module assessment paper.  

Nothing is smooth-sailing!

I have always known and told myself that to serve God is no smooth-sailing journey/process. But I am beginning to realise how much more difficult it can and would be. I am thus reminded of how strong and faithful God is in all my weaknesses!

Now, my main focus is on my theological studies at ABTS but I am looking for opportunities to serve others whether in church or elsewhere. The “else where service” would most likely be on a volunteer basis and could be put into action after my July ABTS course as an alternative to full-time service in church. That is the direction which God has placed in my heart to do and I am contiuing to depend on Him for His guidance and direction!

Thinking of alternatives

Due to the current situation with my church’s delay regarding me, I am now thinking of looking at serving in any “social organisations” or other “suitable open opportunities”. However, this would only happen after my next bible course in July if the delay continues to drag on beyond that.

This decision was made so that I would be a good steward of God’s time and talents. I still continue to trust in God’s leading in my life!

In a rather frustrating time

I just do not know what to think/do!

Many things are uncertain now but I find comfort in the fact that God never changes (He will remain the same)! The only thing that I think I can do now is just to remain patient and keep on listening and surrendering to God and His Will for my life.